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A Wakeup call

It was a night around 11.45 a human body through an incredible transformation from a single cell to a complex, self –sustaining organism, that just came out creating an yet to find adjective pain, equalent of 40 bones getting fractured in single stretch tending the lady towards a resurrection, the tiny hands and the touch of mine had just relaxed my mother which she kept telling me as a fairy tale, which sounds to me funny as I never knew the pain behind and ever since I never tried to know her as well. I only knew her as a care taker.

So many such nights she slept with eyes open, selflessly desiring, that I would close my eyes for a sleep. To me this continued, as, since then I never woke up to understand her sleeplessness. This time I only knew her as a timer to feed me.

Eternally, it seemed my aura had started expanding which took me away from her physically, and from then noticeably I visited her frequently rare as my selfish mind didn’t recognized the selfless soul. This time I only knew her as a co-passenger who helped in letting me on my way.

Days and nights went on ,which caused to her an irreparable lose, her health started decaying, I don’t know what transcended me I woke up one day ,noticed black circles around her eyes and I could see the feats behind the circles which she performed only for my sake. I saw her differently than ever before, my heart is with full of content for her, I transformed to a lover from a daughter, I took her totally .I became a great admirer of her.This time I only knew her as a profounder of my inner being.

I became years of latecomer in nursing her, which had become uncontrollable and I lost control on the things that could have handled. The hands of her, trembled out of weakness, her touch made me guilt of my being late. This time I only knew me as a regreter for the rest of the life.

The last- in memory when she was on her celestial bed was, she kissed me with those tender lips which still were consistent in love. This time I only knew her as an unconditional lover ever will I get again.

The night had come where a flimsy layer of struggle existed between the eternal object and her breath. Her breath- in and breath -out had a long gap with in which I was just a living dead. I prayed I would get a sleep which doesn’t wake me up ever after, before she leaves me.

Since the phenomenon is to let go the old waters for new waters which should start to travel over steep valleys and mountains for new experiences which is, till the understanding ends up with wisdom.

I am thankful to my understanding that I realized to recognize her, much early of her departure. However still I regret and I deserve for a life time punishment of grief in not being timely in my responsibilities towards that incredible being which incepted me. This time I only know her as a performer who made me to understand the script of life.


Please build an understanding that makes to realize in recognizing.



The greatest looser,
Sudeshna