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Saaradaa prasaadamu

aMdukoevayya .. -------------- paSuSaalayae neeku vasatigRuhamai nilva paSuvula graasamae paDaka gaaga pasikaMduvai neevu pavaLiMchi yuMDagaa niSiloena taaralae nee jaaDa joopa ahamutoe sparthiMchu navanijanula gaava sahanabhaavamu naerpi SaaMti goorchaMga mahitaatmuDokkaMDu mahijaerinaaDaMchu vihitamau reetiloe vaeDkajoopaMga sarvamerginavaaru NgNjaanavRuddhulu vaaru urvipai nechchaToe nunnaTTi vaaru poorvadikkunanuMDi puTTeDu praematoe parvulettuchu vaega paSchimaMbunaku chiTTi paapaayivai chirunavvu navvuchu toTTi uyyelaloena tooguchuMDaMga puTTitivilanaMchu moedammu toeDanu paTTuka vachchaeru bahumatul`neeku maarinaa kaalammu maaralaedaa teeru vaari maadirigaane vasudhapai naeDu chaeri yeeprajalaMta chelimitoe nokachoeTa koorimin` baMchaeru konni kaan`kalanu kathavoele doechinaa gatamaMta yeeroeju pRuthivipai nilichaenu praemaneedepuDu vyadha galgajaesinaa yaanaaTi nee baadha madiloena dalapoesi maMchidaa maaTa pratiyaeTa jaripaemu parvammu neepaera hitunigaa traatagaa hRudayaana nuMchi atulitammainaTTi daatyaagamuMdalchi nutijaesi guDiloena noeraara neeku saMdiyammula baasi SaaMtidootaga neMchi yaMdajaesina praema mapuroopamanuchu yaMdiMchuchunnaamu vaMdanaal` neekidae aMdukoevayya maa yaMjalul` svaami!/aesu! suprabha 12-25-05 12:40 PM

Posted by: Mrs. suprabha U. At: 26, Dec 2005 1:29:06 AM IST

padyamulosaguTa laedani.. --------------------------- padyamu losaguTa laedani gadyamu vraayuTanu maana kashTaalostaay`! hRudyaMbuga laekunnaa gadyaMbuyu vraayavalayu kaadanakepuDun`!6:30 ------- bedariMpule pratiroejoo! padavayyaa svaami yiMka bayaTaku vaDigaa! bedaristoo koorchuMTae hRudayamu dorikaena neeku neppaTikainaa? paMpiMsaesey` tallee! chaMpaestuMTaaDu nannu saMtatamiTulae ! koMpalu munagavu laevae paMpakamunu jaeyakunna paTTeDu NgNjaanaM! chaduvula tallivi neevaa padamula neeyaMga laeva padyamu vraayan` hRudayamu koerae pagidini chaduvunu, NgNjaanamunu niDuchu saMtasamiDavaa ! anukonnavanni viMToo manasunu maarchaeya vaDiga maayala jaestoo vanaruha naetrine yaMToo praNutula jaeyaalaTanna praNutistaanaa? eMtaTi bhaedame meeloe ! suMtayu kalagiMchaveevu sootidi yeDadan` paMtamu baTTuka goorchoni yeMtaTikainaa tegiMchu neeyana maatraM! korukuDu paDadee naijamu! sarasamu laaDaedi taane CaMdamu toeDan` karuNaedoe yunnaTluga varamulanichchiMdi yataDe paTTuka karamul` varamaedoe yichchaaDani niratamu poojiMchamanunu neevannaTulan`! darisiMchaboeka ninnaTa taramaunaa koluva naaku tallive yaMToo! vinaDae yeMtaga jeppina! tanapaTTae tanadi gaani talapaDu vaerae! kanapaDake kaLLa yeduTanu manasunu vaedhiMchuchunna mamataMdaenaa? praemaa praemaa yaMToo koemalamau yeDadaniTlu koestoo uMTae svaamula vaarainaa, naa dee madineTleeyagalanu ! telupave tallee! ainaa yeMduku naatoe! vaenaku vaeluga parulaTa praemamu neeyan` naenokkadaani neeyaka praaNamu boeyaena? kaaka paruvaa nashTaM? aDigaenaa varamimmani naDimiMTanu poojalaMdunaaroejainaa! aDugake maaTaedoe yani yeDadanu baadhiMchanaela neetagavulatoe! navvunu paigaa koorchoni! evvarikee teliyanaTula neenaaTakamul^! novvaga jaestae naamadi puvvula haaraalu vaesi poojistaanaa ? chaesaevannee jaestoo aasalu beTTaesi naaku ammane yaMToo moesamu jaestae yippuDu oosula naaDaena tanato utsaahamutoe ! pommanavae yikanainaa! rammanna devaru asaliTa raa! raa! yaMToo! kammani nee praemuMDaga yimmani yeetaninaDugaga naemavasaramae! 7:30 -------- moosaestunnaavappuDe vraasina padyaalu chaala bhaarati putree! vaesitivaevoe niMdalu moesamu jaesaenaTaMchu muDuchuka moemun` varamula nichchina svaamiga karamunu saagiMchuchuMDa gaDuvaegamutoe karuNanu joopeDivaaDani karamula moeDchaeTi badulu kallala naapai! ------- kallala jeppaanaa? na nnallari beTTaMga gaada naaTakamidiyun`? tallini yannadi yevvaru? vellaDi jaesaeva roopu vaeDina yaTulan` maaTichchaanannaa, naa maaTanu lekkiMchaboeka maMtraalato yee yaaTalanaaDaedevvaru? yaeTiki kaimoeDchavaleno yerigiMchavayaa! choopaka yaDigina roopamu koepamu raadaemi yeMta koorimi yunnaa? taapamu naarpae baduluga koepamu rappiMchuTaela koorchoni yeduTan` padakoMDugaMTalaavidhi padamula guripiMchi ninna vraayiMchinanun` madimechchu padyamiDaDani yedaloe nanukonna kshaName yeenaaTakamaa? karamula moeDchaga laedaa? barabara gadyammu vraasi bhaavamu delupan` Siramunu vaMchaga laedaa? marimari praNutiMchalaeda maatanu,ninnun`? svaramune begalaga neeyaka karuNanu joopiMchitaMchu kaburulu paigaa! varamula nichchina jaalaa? svaramae laekunna neTula sannuti jaetun`? arthamu uMDaalayyaa! vyarthamugaa balukanaela palukuMdaMToo! saarthakamuga nuMDuviDaka vyarthamugaa nityamiTula vraayiMchuTayaa? yichchaa naMToo padyamu kachchaedoe yunna reeti kaTTiMchivaDin` mechchaga boenani paigaa! nochchuka maaTlaaDa niTula noppautuMdaa? chaallaevayyaa saamee kallala naaDaenaTaMchu kaanivi kaburul`! talliki teliyada yaemiTi kallala naaDaeTidaanno kaadoe naenun`? karamidi needani yaMToo niratamu neemuMdu nuMDi neeviDu palukae cherachera vraastoo unnaa harihari yeemaaTa baDuTa! anyaayamugaa! aDiginavannee jaesiyu paDagaa neechaetaniTTi palukulu kharmae! kaDigina mutyamu vaMTidi yeDadanu aMdiMchanaMchu niTTivi kathalaa?8:40 ------- poenani delisiyu bayaTaku vaaNini yaDuguTayu neevu vyarthame gaadaa? kaanaga raadani roopamu NgNjaanamunichchae guruvune saadhiMchuTayaa! -------- saadhiMpulu! saadhiMpulu! vaedhiMcheDidevaru nannu praemamu paerun` boedhiMpa dalachudaedoe boedhiMchagaraada praemamuMDina manasun`! vaadaalanu jaeyistoo paadaalevo raalchutaavu padyamulallan` kaadanna yaTula naedoe! paadukalaku poojajaesi praNatulaniDinaa! nutulanu modaleTTavalenu pratidinamunu nutulatoene praaraMbhamagun` matiboevuchuMDu nammaku satatamu vinavachchuchuMDu sannuti vinakan` chaesinadi jaalu naeTiki vraasina padyamulu jaalu, vaadamu jaalun` gaasini goorchaka madikika chaeseDivee natulanaevo chaekoni pommaa! manasuku tRuptiga laedaa anayamu maisoorunaMdu archana toeDan` praNatulu,praNutulu aMToo kinukanu balikiMchutaavu geervaaNi sutan` pratidina meegati balukuTe! matiboegoTTaka marimari maayalatoeDan` natulanu jaeyaga nimmika satatamu jaesaeTi reeti SaaradakiMkan` ------ poDigiMchanaela neegati neDadalo poMgiMchi padamunaedoe maralaa! saDijaeyaboeka manasuna vaDigaa jaestuMDa naenu bhaarati nutulan` chaalani cheppaanu gadaa raalinavaa palukupoolu raajeevaakshaa! mroelanu goorchuni yiTlaa goelanu jaeyiMchutaavu koMTega niMkaa! vraayaga jaestae chaalaa! vaeyaalaa teranu gooDa vaegame naenun`! teeyani praemanu joopaga vraayiMchaavani deliyaga padugurikachaTan` aemiTi yuMdoe manasuna? svaamivi neevanni yeruga vachchunu gaanee yaemeyi deliyunu naakiTa neemadiloe nunnadaemo nityaanaMdaa? palukavayaa saamee! nee palukula baMgaaramaMta paTTukapoelae! chilakavayaa navvula naa yalukala maanaesi yiMka nakhilaaraadhyaa! talapuladelupaka naatoe palukula vraayiMchaniTle vachcheDidaemoe! telupuduvaa yadiyainaa? palukaka yiTlaage nannu vaagistaavaa? palukanu neetoe pommika! aligiMchedaveppuDiTule yaDiginadiDakan`! kalamunu moosaestunnaa! telupuko neemanasuniMka terapayi neevae! aruvuga nivvanu karamidi yerigiMchaga praemaneedi yellarakilapai! muripiMchukoMduveegati karamulamoeDchinanu gooDa gaDuvinayamunan`! koeTinamassulaniDinaa maaTalanaaDaMgaboeka,mauniga, naavai paaTaga joostaavaeTiki? sooTiga naDugaMgaraada chooDakanaTulan` kalamunu moostaanannaa palukula dhaaralle vadili palikiMchuTayaa! viluvagu palukulaniDagaa balikiyu, naachaeta niTula vraayiMchuTayaa! nilupavu maaTala nokkaTi! aligitinaMchunu niratamu napavaadamulae! telisaedeTlaa ninnika tilakiMchiyu dinamu dinamu teeruganeduTan`! tulalaeni praema joopaga palikinadaa maaTa yaina paaTiMchedavaa? talapula nilupaka nokaTiyu jalajala yeepichchi paluke jaarustaavaa? bhaarati putrini yaMToo dhaaruNipai naMdareruga taginavi palukul` dhaaraga paaraga jaestoo koerinadistaanaTaMchu koesitivaedoe! viluvagu palukulu baaraka palukula talliki sutanani palukaga galaraa yilapai joocheDi vaaralu? telupavayaa saami yiMka trippaka maaTan`! 10:40 8-21-05 6:30-10:40AM laechi kaLLumoosikoni paDukunae manasuloe goNugukonnaanu" ninna daadaapu padakoMDu gaMTalu koorchoebeTTi vraayiMchinaa okka padyamu gooDa yivvalaedu.ikamuMdaMtaa aTuvaMTi vraatalae vastaayaemoe.laevaalani gooDa anipiMchaTamu laedu." ani. veMTanae yettukonnaaru." padyamu losaguTa laedani gadyamulanu vraayakunna kashTaalostaay`" aMToo. iMkaemainaa kaasta nidramattu uMTae okkasaarigaa paiki yegiripoeyiMdi. marala yaedoe paaThamu modalubeTTaboetunnaaDanukoMToo laechi koorchonnaanu kalamoo,pustakamoo aMdukoni.

Posted by: Mrs. suprabha U. At: 6, Sep 2005 9:57:12 AM IST

Attitude - A divine lecture ---------------------------- Attitude makes all the difference. What you think is good for you, and what Mother thinks is different right now. I told you Mother knows best. In the end there is no choice. Doing willingly, or grudgingly, it is up to you. You know what it feels like when you do unwillingly, thinking it is hard and tough. What Mother gave is more powerful than the one your heart desires. You need to sacrifice a few small things for the sake of a bigger gain later. Surrender,surrender .Total surrender is what you need to do.Not half way through. Surrender to the divine will. Not to the demands of mind. Mother's way will bring you faster to the goal. If you are truly a genuine seeker you won't care about the hardships. You don't let your mind stand in your way. With out subduing that mind there is no hope for Self-realization. With out self-knowledge, no peace, no bliss absolute. Self-realization is God-realization. That is the ultimate goal, union or yoga. That is what you say you want! Right ? How long you think you can go on like this? Make up your mind. You want the grand prize or just a small token ? I am not pushing. Just trying to open your eyes to reality. Who else will care about your welfare than mother? I don't like to see you like that, crest fallen, dejected, avoiding looks,avoiding the contact. You know,no matter what you do, you can't avoid me. Which ever side you turn to, I am there. I know your thoughts. I know what you are about to say or do,even before you do. We can play however you want.But you know..none can match my intelligence or power. True. You didn't say any such thing. But Prolonging gives only agony. Ultimately you will see my way is the only way and right way.There is no other way out. You have to come to me. Only to me. No one else there in the world but me. I know what you are thinking right now. This much lecture, just because I wanted to do saraswatee gaayatri instead of mantrajapa! Also you are thinking -"if I put it on the screen they are going to say this is all my imagination, not swaameejee talking." Let them. Why you are afraid? Since when you became such a coward? When did that cowardice enter into your heart? We both know the truth. The truth can never be changed by opinions. Trust in yourself and in me.That is most important. Nothing else matters. Trust in me. Faith in me. What did I say the other day ? Unshakable faith. That is what is required. You need to make hard choices. I didn't give that gift as another poem to add to your list and forget. Didn't I tell you practice, practice, practice. step by step, bit by bit,one thing at a time. You can't gulp the whole meal at the same time. Morsel by morsel, chewing well. That is the way to go. I will keep watching every move you make and keep reminding you until you get it right and straight. I won't let you forget, even if you say I am acting like a pest. Don't let every thing go to waste. I want only the best for you and accept nothing less than best from you. Now I rest and leave you to your test. With love as I said before.. 8-10-2005 10:30-11:55AM at work Started during the Tea break in the cafeteria and kept on while I was doing my work. All I wanted to do was chant sarasvatee gaayatri certain number of times for some specific time.. He said "NO". I got little bit upset and when I went for a break quietly I started to read "sahasranaamastoetram". Immediately He put a break and made me chant the mantram He gave (which I was finding hard to do ) a few times and started giving the lecture.

Posted by: Mrs. suprabha U. At: 20, Aug 2005 7:10:10 AM IST

Revelations 2 .. More advice 1. Victory to.. ------------- Let go Find your Self Be one with nature and Cosmos There is no such thing as low and useless in my creation You have the same cosmic wisdom, light and love in you Let go of frustrations, anger, jealousy, disappointments Good, bad...give every thing back to Cosmos Free your Self of the baggage Be free See your true shining self Be your blissful self Be peaceful See your-Self in every one and every thing Eat natural foods Be natural No pretense, no hiding or cover up Let your light shine through Be true to your name Dig deep into your self and find the gems embedded Bring them out and share with the world If any one can, you can Nothing stopping you but your own fears No need to depend on others Be confident and just be your self Subdue the mind You take control of it. Make use of it. Let it not ride on your back. Self is full. Self is true Self is bliss. Self is wisdom Self is light While shining it dispels darkness Every thing you need is in your Self. And also in Cosmos It is all there in abundance There is room for every one Enough for every one No need for bickering, fights, wars, or petty feelings Develop the skills, tap and enrich your selves Enrich yourselves beyond your wildest dreams Eternal happiness is what you deserve Take your share, what you need Simplicity in thoughts and life Have enough to meet your needs Share the rest with less fortunate Wants and needs are different Happiness is in helping, giving and sharing Help yourselves by helping others Love loving others Be light, reach the heights Think before you speak Does it hurt others or make them happy? Is it helpful or necessary? Be an instrument of the higher power Spreading cheer and happiness Spread His love He doesn't need warriors Be a warrior for peace And a carrier of cheerfulness and happiness Break down the barriers Let it all be one universal family There is strength in love, strength in unity Love conquers hearts Love conquers worlds It brings the brotherhood New age dawns on the earth and beyond Victory to Truth, love and peace Victory to the mankind Victory to God and Cosmos 8-14-05 6:55-7:39AM I finished reading sarasvatee sahasranaama stoetraM 2nd time and was about to start the 3rd time, I was stopped and was given the first part. Thinking it was done I continued with the 3rd and final time as I promised to Mother. As if they were testing me, half way through, flow started again as the second part . How can I say "No" for these gifts, blessings and divine advice ? 2. Ultimate Success ------------------ God expresses Himself in a number of ways His ways are mysterious They are beyond any one's knowledge, Each unique to each individual Every one can learn some thing from others No one has monopoly over the knowledge It is vast, unending, Deep Ocean Sharks, whales and many unknown are there Only one without fear Can dive and be awarded with its rich treasures Same is true with life Doubts and fear won't help One with courage and determination wins With mastery over the fear you can swim with sharks you can reach the stars You can conquer the worlds Conquering the inner world is important Mastery over your mind is critical Meditation and breath control are the keys Use the keys, open the doors Enter the House of God Step in to the world of bliss Know, be the eternal peace That is the ultimate success. 8-14-05 7:45- 8:02 AM During prayers

Posted by: Mrs. suprabha U. At: 16, Aug 2005 6:38:08 PM IST

aataDae aataDae .. --------------------- aataDae sarvasvaM, aataDae aataDae aataDae sarva daevataa samuchchayaM aataDae sarvaSaktula sammaeLanaM aatani vaakyaM NgNjaana deepakaM aatani praema aanaMda daayakaM aatani saevae bhavabaMdha moechakaM aatani kRupae moekshakaarakaM roopaM kamaneeyaM, gaatraM sammoehanaM dRushTi yati SeetalaM, sparSa yati paavanaM naamakeertanaM ,roopa bhaavanaM paada saevanaM, nitya poojanaM sarvaartha saMdhaayakaM sakala kalidoesha nivaarakaM aataDu mooDu moortulu aekamaina roopaM aataDu mujjagaalanu veligiMchae deepaM aataDu roopu daalchina akhaMDa chaitanyaM aataDae manalanu broevavachchina aadaivaM ataDae sadgururoopaM ataDae sajjana mitraM ataDae sachchidaanaMdaM ataDae paramaanaMdaM ataDae manaku SaraNyaM SaraNyaM SaraNyaM sarvadaa SaraNyaM sarvajagatiki SaraNyaM jayajaya sachchidaanaMdaa jayajaya paramaanaMdaa jayajaya aanaMda kaMdaa jayajaya nayanaanaMdaa jayajaya jayajaya jayajaya jayoestutae jayoestutae jayoestutae jayajaya jayoestutae suprabha 8-13-05 9:30 - 9:50AM aalasyaMgaa laechi paDukonae praarthana jaesikonaTamu modalubeTTaanu. mooDu roejulanuMDee muMdugaa amma praarthana gooDa jaesikoenivvakuMDaa maMtra japamu balavaMtaana jaeyistunnaarani goNigaanu . aMdukaenaemoe yeeroeju kaasta paTTu vadulu jaeSaaru. amma stoetramu,guru stoetramu kaagaanae manasu maMtrajapamu modalubeTTiMdi daanaMtaTadae..oka aragaMTa jaesaesariki " sachchidaanaMduDae sarvasvamu,sarvasvamu,sarvasvamu" ani anaTamu modalubeTTIMdi. appaTivarakoo medalakuMDaa goorchunna ayya gaaru vinnaanannaTlu :-)vaibraeshan`s` baMpiMchaaru. . aataDae..aataDae aMToo maaTalu konasaagaayi. aedoe yistunnaarani arthamaiMdi. maMtrajapamu aapaesi maaTalanu kaagitamu meeda beTTasaagaanu.. sarvajagatiki SaraNyaM anna maaTalatoe poorti jaeSaananukoni, dhanyavaadaalarpiMchi yiMkaeM jeppaaloe teliyaTamu laedanagaanae yaMdiMchinavi chivari paMktulu

Posted by: Mrs. suprabha U. At: 15, Aug 2005 7:58:02 AM IST

pulakiMpa jaesaenu.. ----------------------- aMdaala SreevaaNi yaaSeessutoeDa CaMdamae gaMdhamau Saaradaa sutanu baMdhaalu teganaMpi bhaaratee kRupane aMdaenu gamyammu nativaega vaega poorNaeMdu biMbamai muripiMchu moemu svarNaabha kaaMtulan` bhaasiMchu maenu varNaale taanugaa baragaeTi talli varNiMpa veelaune paTTinae yaina vaevaela roopaala veligaeTi daevi bhaavaanikaMdaena bhaasheMta yunna aavaaNi vachanaala amRutaMpu ruchulu aa veeNa raagaala aanaMda jharulu aatalli choopuloe amRutaaMSu chaluva aatalli naDakaloe haMsalla hoyalu aatalli navvuloe alaraaru virulu aatalli padamuloe naMdaenu nidhulu kalaveeNa dhariyiMcha karapadmamoMDu veligaenu pottammu vaeroMDu daana telipadma peeThaana teliSoebha miMchi alaraaru naatalli alivaeNi vaaNi telitammi kanulatoe tilakiMchi nannu palukaaDi nityammu pramudammu goorchi palikiMchi yeereeti vraayiMchu talli pulakiMpa jaesaenu putridee maenu suprabha 8-12-2005 11:30 AM-12:08 PM At work aedoe pustakamuloe yeppuDoe sarasvatee gaayatri chooSaanu. eMdukoe adi konnaaLLapaaTu oka nirNeetasaMkhyaloe chadavaalani anipiMchi ninna modalu beTTaanu. veMTanae daaniki braek` vaesaesi naaku miMguDu baDaTamu laedannadi aayana yichchina maMtramu japiMchamani aanatichchaaru. naaku nachchinadi chaesikoenivvaTamu laedani goNigaanu. neekaedi maMchidoe ammakae telusu. nammakamu uMchamani yeemadhyae gadaa cheppaanu. adi kavitagaanae yivvalaedu. anusariMchi, aacharaNaloe beTTaTaaniki yichchiMdi.. aMToo gaMTa paigaa lekcharichchaarani chinnabuchchukoni, maaTlaaDakuMDaa avatalivaipuku dirigi panijaesikoevaTamu modalubeTTaanu. ninna CaMdassu guriMchi anna maaTalu gooDaa gurtuMchukoni manasu challabarachaTaaniki amma meedae CaMdassuloe vraayiMchaTamu modalubeTTaaru. sagamayyaeTappaTiki kanneeLLu jalajalaa kaarasaagaayi. manasuloe amma meeda poMgutunna bhaavamu gurtiMchi veMTanae vaibraeshan`s` paMpaTamu modalubeTTaaru padyaalannee aipoeyaevarakoo avi konasaagutoonae unnaayi..

Posted by: Mrs. suprabha U. At: 14, Aug 2005 10:30:32 PM IST

A special gift given by The higher power with specific instruction to share For interested readers, circumstances that led to this special grace/gift and back ground, context were narrated below. with love to you all, suprabha Divine Love - Revelation ------------------------- 1. Remove / Get rid of the ego. 2. Open your heart. 3. Love every one as if they are me. 4. Be ready to sacrifice every thing for the sake of others. 5. Keep your sight only on me. 6. Never say "No" to new experience. 7. Think Positive. 8. Stay calm. 9. Meditate. 10. Practice silence. 11. Mother Knows best. 12. Don't analyze, feel with heart. 13. You are on right track. 14. It takes hard work and hard choices to reach the goal. 15. Share your knowledge with others. 16. These revelations are for every one. 17. Practice, practice, practice. 18. Never give up. 19. You have every thing in you. 20. There is only one. 21. Aphorisms / sootraas need to be meditated upon. 22. I love you. Not just today, tomorrow ,but always. Remember. 23. Be in touch. Don't lose the connection. 24. Ours is heart to heart bond. 25. Life is a golden pond. 26. Enjoy every Sunrise and Sunset. every thing has its own beauty. 27. Every one is unique. 28. Each one represents a part of me. 29. Every thing is divine. 30. I dwell in each and every heart and being. 31. This is a special gift to you. Don't keep it to your self. Share. 32. Go. Enjoy the day and life. (As I said "Thank You" ) No thanks necessary. This is just to show you that I love you and you are special. ( As I was feeling uneasy with that word and hesitating to put it on paper ) Don't hesitate. Go ahead and write. I didn't lie. You ARE special. Believe it, live it, love yourself, as well as others. Love is the key. Love opens doors. Love opens hearts. Love makes life beautiful. Love for yourself, others, God, His creation.. Love ,Love,love.I can't emphasize more. Love brings out the best. Some times it may feel like a test. Don't detest it. Faith is a must. Unshakable faith that is ! No matter what, you should not waver. That is the testing stone for ones character. With faith (in me)every thing will be possible. I mean every thing! You can see God. You can become God yourself. I am not kidding. What else can you ask for? What else my dear ? What else ? 8-7-05 Between 7:00-8:00 AM Given, as I was praying to Mother saraswati at Datta Retreat Center, sitting in front of Mother / swaameejee's pictures Story behind the gift :-) ---------------------- It has been developing over the period of few weeks slowly but surely. I was told during those weeks by that higher power SGS :-) who has taken over the reins of my life for the last three years, to do certain things with clear, unmistakable instructions given from the heart and some times also in writing, through poems stating the purpose of the actions too. Even though it caused me lot of pain,obeyed I did. But over the gurupoorNima celebrations, many things happened and I felt I was misled purposefully. I got mad , frustrated and said. "You knew I said to Mother that I would dedicate my life to Her and only to Her. All of a sudden you come into my life and complicate every thing saying you are my Mother. I asked for certain things from you so that I don't feel like I am going back on the word I gave to Mother. With out giving any of those things I asked for, you wanted me to trust your word and have faith in you. I tried my best and believing you are my mother I followed you every where, driving thousands of miles, emptying my wallet, unconcerned about others feelings. Now you do this ! My mother would never ask for such things and never hurt my feelings. She is a perfect being on all counts. Your recent actions proved you are not Her at all. Don't ever ask me to treat you as my Mother again.Just leave me alone. " I came home from DRC, started ignoring Him completely. Never once I glanced at His picture in the past two weeks nor I did talk to Him. I sat in front of Mother's picture and said what ever I wanted to say only to Her. He waited very patiently listening to every word I said :-). Many members from NJDYC went the following week end to DRC to do volunteer work. I decided not to. He wouldn't leave me alone. An e-mail came from one of the members asking whether I have any plans to join. He was watching what I would do and say. I asked him bluntly , shall I tell him what happened or you have any thing else you wanted me to say ? An e-mail went saying that I had enough of the travel to last me the whole life time (which was also true. Since April 23, almost all the weekends except one, I was driving close to 700 miles every week end). Another week of silence passed by. Again they needed help at DRC. He asked me whether I was going or not. I said "my mother is right in my heart and I have no plans to go any where". Call came from some one saying they really need help and only as a last resort he is giving me a call to see whether I could come. I couldn't say no to that kind of request. I told that silent witness..I said yes. But don't gloat. Even if I come to DRC to help them I am not coming to see you in your temple. I will stay where I want to stay and do what I want to do and come back. A ride was also kindly arranged so that I don't have to drive alone back and forth together, 670+ miles.The minute that call came I panicked , started crying and said to mother, " Mother! They are good people. I don't want to hurt their feelings .But I prefer to ride only with your company, talking to you and singing along the way what ever I want to sing or doing my prayers. I don't want to spend all that time in the car chatting. Half an hour or 45 minutes I can take. But not for 5 to 6 hours. Please get me out of this situation. I don't care for the time, money or gas it takes as long as you give me your company on the way." Acknowledgment came. with a simple phone call I got out of the situation and started alone. Now He got a perfect chance to work on me and break the barriers :-) Looks like He decided the poems / songs would be the best medium. He started showering them through out the journey. After 3 or 4 I started laughing and said "Thanks for the showers. But they don't change the things you did. still I won't come to temple." He started a dialog and then a song personally asking me, requesting me to come to the temple. Such a beautiful and heart warming one ! My anger dissipated, at least temporarily and finally I said "yes. I will come". I would have looked like a heartless monster if I were still stubborn even after that song. I went to the temple. He just sat there staring. No hello, no welcoming hug. Nothing. I waited and started the conversation (one sided ) and finished what ever I wanted to say. No response or acknowledgment of my prayers or conversation. Regretting for yielding so soon, just melting for that song, I told him.."Fine ! keep it up. Respecting your word and song I came opened, poured my heart out. It takes two to keep the relationship going. I can't keep giving, and expressing love with out receiving or hearing any thing in return. You say you are my mother and have love for me. Be willing to prove it and express it just like you ask me to. Otherwise don't ever call me to come here again." I walked out with out looking back. Next day morning ( 7th) I woke up little before 4AM and did my prayers and usual chatter with mother( of course His picture was also there ). Sang a song that came spontaneously. Explaining probably that was the only thing I could do to express my love for Her, I started talking and in course of time I expressed my longing to see Her and asked for Her darSanaM.All the while constantly the vibrations were given like they usually do to acknowledge what was being said. By the time my chatter and every thing was over it was 6:30. I went to take shower. Suddenly He started talking from the heart,named a person and asked whether I can give up every thing I have for that person. (I always felt that person had/ has a very special place in His heart. To be honest, I might have been a little bit jealous too about that person. ) I was shocked, kept quiet for a second then said" you know what I have, don't have, what I feel, why I feel, what I can, what I can't do. No. I can't do what you ask of me. He said 'that is what standing in between you and mother. That is why you can't have Her darSan. " and became silent again. I too fell silent, finished my shower and said to myself "they them selves said I would get the darSan .Nothing was said of the things required of me or conditions to be met. I will not give up on that ." and went again to do my prayers to mother. Sat down, closed my eyes,joined hands, finished the first sloekaM. Suddenly He started speaking. Picked up the notebook and Pen, I started jotting down every thing. It seems to have been the response for what I have said the previous day in temple, " If you are Mother, have love for me, express it.". Not only was it expressed, but in such a way ! By the end needless to say I became speechless and was in tears, full of gratitude for the special gift given. As I was instructed, here I am, sharing with you all . More stories and tid bits later :-)

Posted by: Mrs. suprabha U. At: 10, Aug 2005 9:12:32 PM IST

avunu chUsAnu. mArchAnukUDA. saMtOShaM ikkaDamAyiMTi daggara SrIrAmAlayaMlO pratirOjU chuTTuprakkala strIlu kalusukoni viShNu sahasra nAmaM. lalitApArAyaNaM chEstUvuMTAru. nAbhAryakUDA veLtUvuMTuMdi. I prabhAtavaMdanaM kApIni priMT tIsi vALLaki istAnu. AnaMdistAru. mukhyaMgA amerikAlO oka telugu ADaboDuchu vrAsiMdaMTE saMbarapaDatAru. IkaLa abbaDaM deivaprasAdaM pUrvajanma sukRutaM

Posted by: Mr. VIRABHADRA SASTRI KALANADHABHATTA At: 11, Jul 2005 8:27:52 AM IST

namassulu. nirabhyaMtaraMgaa maarchukoevachchu. kaani daaniki anuguNamugaa vaerae okaTi reMDu choeTla gooDa maarchukoevalasi uMTuMdi suprabha

Posted by: Mrs. suprabha U. At: 11, Jul 2005 7:59:31 AM IST

chakkagA vuMdi. dvipadalOni aMdamE adi. aMdarU sUryOpAsanagA telugulO pADukonEvidhaMgA vunnAyi. avasaramanukoMTE chivari padyaMlO prabhalu jimmeDunIku prajalichchunatulu animArchukOvachchu SrImati suprabhaku abhyaMtaraM lEkapOtE

Posted by: Mr. VIRABHADRA SASTRI KALANADHABHATTA At: 11, Jul 2005 7:39:56 AM IST

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